Building A Craft
I wish I had the same belief in my writing abilities as I do in my craft projects…
When I tell people about my various craft projects — weaving, embroidery, cross-stitch — they’re always like:
‘You must have so much patience!’
But here’s the thing — I don’t.
I am so impatient. I want things done yesterday, preferrably in triplicate and wrapped with a bow.
No, I don’t have any patience…
What I have is the ability to see the progress of the piece — however slow that progress may be.
Seeing it creeping into a mode of ‘becoming’ lets you know you’re on the right track.
What I have is the faith that it’ll all turn out alright, in the end.
Probably not in exactly the way I thought it would be, but most likely the way it was meant to be.
My craft projects have a way of evolving as they go into something different, but no less ‘good,’ than what I was originally aiming for (assuming I had a destination in mind at all.)
I have a belief in my own abilities at the craft.
I know that even if I ‘mess up,’ it’s probably fixable.
And even if it’s not, even if this piece goes entirely wrong, it’s not a reflection of my crafting abilities as a whole.
…I wish I had the same steadfast belief in my writing abilities.
Writing — which I’ve been doing for as long as I can remember, that’s as vital to me as breathing — isn’t something I have the same confidence in.
It’s going to take some time, but I’m trying to build up that belief.
To know that it doesn’t matter if the thing I’m working on is moving slowly — that, just like in cross-stitch, you build it up.
And all those lines and colour-blocks work their way outwards until they turn…
