Casual Homophobia: A Thousand Cuts

When I was very, very, small, someone I love — an adult — said something that stuck a tiny dagger into my heart.

Cee R.
4 min readJun 11, 2021

(Warning: this post discusses several instances of Homophobia, and the feelings caused.)

I use the term Homophobia here as a catch-all for all types of bigotry against LGBTQ+ people, including general Queerphobia, and Transphobia.

‘Casual Homophobia: A Thousand Cuts’ with rainbow stripes down the left-hand side
Image: author’s own, made with Canva

The adult said to me, a small child, “…it shows being Gay as something natural. Which it’s not.”

And a teeny-tiny voice in my small child brain said, ‘But what about me?’ and then I stamped it down very, very, hard.

Partly because I didn’t know what I meant. What about me? What was I?

Well, if straight was the natural… then I was straight? Right?

Not long ago I recounted this occurrence to that same person (who is a lot more accepting and supportive these days)… and they couldn’t remember it.

This big thing in my life — in my heart — was nothing to them. Not worth remembering.

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Cee R.
Cee R.

Written by Cee R.

Writer, poet, (book) blogger @ dorareads.co.uk , Queer, weird, & a tad peculiar. Bookish rebel. Welsh as a tractor on the M4. Buy me a coffee @ ko-fi.com/ceearr

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